what to value

So much has been shifting in my life.

I have been putting a lot of pressure on myself to 

GET. IT. RIGHT.

and..

GET. IT. DONE. NOW.

It has become very obvious to me

 that I have been unable,

(or more likely, unwilling)

to allow myself to just 

be.

To just be...

No pressure to accomplish goals right now.

No guilt for not finishing that project or producing anything tangible.

No shame for failing to do what I've set out to do.

To just be 

and to then be truly ok with just being...

I've got plans.

I've got goals. Lots of them, actually.

And they will remain.

I am just needing some time to just be.

What a luxury, if you think about it.

Time, to just be...

It is definitely something not to take for granted.

And many would say that in order to live 

a full life,

filled with everything you have always wanted,

you must hit the ground running and 

keep pushing forward.

For some, that is the perfect equation to propel their life forward.

For me, right now, not so.

I've still got plans.

I've still got goals.

Lots of them.

But right now, the thing that is propelling me forward

and the thing that is making my life feel whole

and good, 

and right,

and real,

is love. 

Love for myself. 

Love for family.

Love for my friends.

Love for my loved ones.

Love for this world.

Just, simply, love.

Time to love. 

Time to be.

This is what I need right now.

And this is what I have.

Never to be taken for granted again.

Never.

It's too important,

too precious,

 to let my time and my love,

or your time and your love,

be whisked away like all the other things that life takes on its windy wings.

It is to be cradled,

and kept in the most special place.

All my love goes to my friend, Curly Curly Shiny Shiny. 

Rest in peace, Peter with the Orcas tattoo.

You were loved,

will continue to be loved,

and will forever be missed.

Love,

liz xo